After Nick goes home tonight, I have to talk with Klay.
Have the talk.
I love him to much to push him.
and I love me enough to know I need to start making smart moves for Emry and I.
This is really hard.
And it hurts.
I'm not sure of the outcome.
I'm not sure what Klay will say.
I just know I need to get out what I'm feeling.
And, if the only result is to part ways, than that's fine.
But, it'll be okay.
I'll admit it:
I do not like to be alone.
I feel that I was alone in my first marriage.
So, to be truly alone.
I'm not comfortable with that, but, I'll deal... I have to.
I have Emry.
I have my dad.
A couple really good friends...
We'll get through this all together.
In essence, I won't be as alone as I think....