Rants of a Not-So Curvy Mama

It's been a while since I've done a post about being a Mom.

So, I decided for today...

I'd throw one into the mix.

My baby...

My wee baby boy...

Is turning 6 years old.

in 6 days.

I want to get him a "big boy" present...

Something that shows him that I know that he is no longer my wee baby...

He is totally into trains..

So, I was thinking about finally taking the leap

and getting into

LIONEL.

These are the running electric, die cast metal trains...

It's the real deal...

And the real deal cost

A REALLY LARGE AMOUNT OF MONEY.

Starter set of O-Gauge trains..

$349.95

You get a Lead Engine, Tender, Freight Car and Caboose.

Batteries, Remote Control Transformer, Enough track to make a 5 ft circle...

And that's it.

That's more than my monthly car payment.

That's almost like 2 weeks worth of groceries...

That's going to cost at least TWICE AS MUCH AS HIS BIRTHDAY PARTY!

And..

I am still trying to find a way to get it.

*Slaps Forehead*

I must be coming down with something.

Like stupid-mama-itis.

Which leads me to my rant...

EVERYTHING is wicked expensive now a days.

It's completely unfair.

We all bust our rear ends to put a roof over our children's heads.

We don't spoil them so we can make the bills...

But, every once in a while...

I just would LOVE to be able to treat my son to the EXACT thing he wants...

Without worrying about not being able to make my bills.

And, it's not like I don't have a decent job.

I DO.

It's not like I don't have savings.

I DO.

But, I am also used to the Universe giving me a kick in the ass, when I attempt to do things like this.

 

I'm overly cautious with our money.

There are no guarantees in this world.

EVER.

So, what will I do?

Will I put in the risk?

Will I just forget the thought even entered my head?

Not sure.

Can't seem to come to a solid decision that makes me feel okay...

What would you do?

It's not like Emry even knows that I was thinking about doing this.

I've been pushing off the electric train purchases for OVER a year now...

I was thinking of splitting it with a few family members...

But, that takes away from any of their thoughts for his birthday.

**SIGHS**

He'll love whatever he gets.

He is appreciative of being thought of.

Just wanted to win the "Coolest Mom Ever" Award.

At least for once...