People Just as Crazy as Me

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Family Nutrition Is Important.

I didn't know how to eat to maintain all of my hard work.
Emry is confused about eating, since I have cut my portion sizes in half....

Made sense... let's go see a nutritionist.

He needs to learn to eat more...
I need to learn if I am eating the right amount.

Doctor gave me some useful tools that addressed both of our issues.

I would like to share them with you (I think they are useful whether you have child(ren) or not):

  1. Healthy food doesn't have to be boring. Want a Cheese burger? Have one! But, make them mini! And mix the cheese in with the meat.. making pseudo meatball patties! You can add arugula or another veggies in their too. Pack as much into them as possible. Plus, little food is more FUN to eat.
  2. Break your plate into FOUR portions.
    I know it seems silly.. but even though I have seen this visual tool, and try very hard to implement it.. It was a major eye opener to Emry. The way the doctor explained it... He just got it. He understood what I was finally saying about his meals not being "enough".
  3.  Seasonings are your friend. Getting bored of the same type of food? Even though you know it's healthy.. you just want to run to burger king and completely indulge in grease.. because it tastes sooo sooo good?!?!?! Most seasonings have really NO nutritional value, yet can change a boring meal into something with PIZZAZZ.
  4. Dessert is ALWAYS an option. This was one of Emry's favorites... He learned that if he is consistently eating healthy and balanced meals.. that dessert is a treat that he can have.. EVERY NIGHT... as long as it's not over the top. One scoop of ice cream... jello... pudding... All of these are awesome options... Or, he can be his own chef (which he loved).. and make new dessert creations (with a little help from me)

I learned how many calories I should eat to maintain this new weight... That number is roughly 1600 calories, depending on my activity level that day. If I am completely being a work out fanatic, I can eat more if needed... If I'm being completely lazy.. I eat a little less.

Emry learned that with him being in karate twice a week.. that he needs to intake MORE calories than a growing boy should have.. and basically.. He needs to eat full meals, and snacks... ALL the time.. And (from what the doctor told me, I shouldn't really deny him anything... his activity level is very apparent, by the MUSCLE tone he has... Not that it's abnormal.. She just has never seen such a defined child.)

Family Nutrition is important.
And I am so glad that Emry and I could learn about this together....

Monday, July 29, 2013

Yummy In My Tummy

Chicken Caprese Salad
Found it here

This week in food, we will be having Chicken Caprese Salad.
Looks Delicious... NO?

Nutritional Info (Serving Size 1/2 cup)
Calories: 186
Fat: 15 grams
Carbs: 3 grams
Protein: 13 grams

 I wanted something that I could heat up and put with some rice/pasta... or leave cold, and put over a salad. This totally achieved my wants/needs.

And, I can attest, it is certainly yummy in my tummy.

Our weekend was filled with amazing fun times....

Friday night, Klay came home from his training class.... We had Papa John's pizza and wings and cheese sticks... And just celebrated with a big family dinner.

Saturday night: Klay. Emry and I saw MONSTER TRUCKS, and went to our local County Fair! Klay had these amazing ribbon fries loaded with cheese and bacon (which Emry Stole HALF of)... Emry had a huge thing of Cotton Candy... and I.. I had a Chocolate and Nut Covered Apple.... My favorite! We walked around, and rode as many rides as we could... We didn't get home til very late in the evening. Completely worth it. Emry Slept until 10a Sunday Morning.

Sunday: We had Klay's parents over for dinner... the first dinner we have thrown in our new home. It rained, so we weren't able to bbq.. but, we still had an amazing family meal.. with great conversation!

I stayed as active as I could during the weekend... But, didn't obsess too much over it.
I was just happy to be... you know what I mean?

Today was an exceptionally long day. And, one would hope I would be able to go straight home after work? Nope. We got karate tonight, and then, I have to make dinner, get the kid to bed... and then drive almost 2 hours away... to go pick up Lissa from the airport... Won't be getting home until after midnight... *SIGHS* But, at least I will have 2 hours on the way home to hear about her epic vacation.

Tomorrow, since I won't be back until late, I am taking a sick day... Emry has a Physical Appointment, and I have a chimney sweep coming to get the fireplace ready for the fall... 
I mean, seriously, Halloween is less than 100 days away... 
And I plan to use my fireplace as much as PHYSICALLY possible this fall/winter.... Save on the gas bill!

Overall, I am tired... but happy... Feeling accomplished by the amount of work that I handled today...

How was your weekend?
Big plans for your week?


Friday, July 26, 2013

Ode to the Chocolate Chip Granola Bar

Happy Friday My Friends, 
A little Nostalgic, yet funny, Food Poetry for you. 

When I want a cookie
And know that I shouldn't
I reach for you in my desk
Because you are better than the rest

The yogurt is gone from my fridge
and breakfast is something I can't miss
So I reach again my friend
Thoroughly satisfying to the end

One bite
Yummy taste inside
Bite #2
Can't get enough of you
Number three
Oh, this can't be...

You're gone.
That's it.
I'll mourn over your wrapper.
Until I need more chocolate chip comfort.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

So, you've made your goal... What's next?

Now that I have made my goal.. I was curious what happened next... 

You read articles about what you need to do to LOSE the weight.. but never any about how to maintain it.... So I went looking... And found, well.. a lot of mixed reviews.

That makes me scared. I felt as if I couldn't take even snid bits of information from each article.. because they were so vastly different. 

I know that I need to figure out how many calories a day I can intake without over doing it.

This was the 5 step plan:

Five Step Plan
Step 1 Once you reach target, add 250 calories a day to your existing daily calorie intake. This means if you’ve been having 1,250 calories each day, you should now have 1,500 calories a day.

Step 2 After a week, weigh yourself on your usual scales. You’ll probably have lost a little more weight. If so, add another 250 calories to last week’s daily allowance. So, if you were having 1,500 calories a day, now have 1,750 calories daily.

Step 3 After a week, weigh yourself again. If you’ve lost more weight, add an extra 250 calories to your daily intake, for example from 1,750 calories to 2,000 calories each day.

Step 4 After a week, if your weight has stabilised that’s the amount of calories you need each day to keep your new slim shape. If you’ve gained a tiny amount, drop your daily calorie intake by 100 calories, for example, from 2,000 calories to 1,900 calories daily. After a week, weigh yourself again. If your weight has stayed the same, that’s the amount of calories you need each day for weight maintenance. If your weight has gone up or down, juggle your daily calorie intake by 50 calories a day until your weight eventually stabilises.

Step 5 Weigh yourself once a week on your usual scales until you are confident that you’re maintaining your healthy weight

So after reading this.. I was confused. 
I mean, it's pretty straight forward.. but, seriously.. It just seems like I have to do guess work to figure out what works? 

Which led me to this decision: I am seeing my primary care anyway.. I am going to ask this question to her, and then see if she can refer me to a nutritionist or a dietician. 

I know I have the right building blocks to a healthy lifestyle. I know I consume the right types of things... But, now, I want to take these tools, these blocks, and I want to construct them in a way, where I don't feel like I have to juggle them EVER again.

This is important to me.

In my opinion, my humble opinion, if I feel like I am still juggling.. then that gives me the impression, that one day, a block will fall. And that I will be right back where I started. I am not about to let that happen.

Tell me:

If you have ever lost a significant amount of weight.. what were your tools to keep it off? How hard was it for you to learn this skill? 

If you ever dropped a block, how hard was it to get back on track?

Let's discuss!

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Have a Bagel

A major part of my healthy lifestyle is limiting the amount of carbohydrates I intake from bread products. For really two reasons: 

  1. usually bread is higher in calories and can make or break a meal.
  2. Hi, My name is Kat, and I'm a bread-aholic. 

I really have a problem when it comes to bread, or bagels... I just... well, I could eat three delicious bagels in one sitting.. with all the cream cheese and butter you could stand. I know it's my weakness.. so I stay away. 

I eat bread, or a bagel thin, every so often... but, only one... and I make sure that I can't see if there are more in the house.. because I know I will over indulge. 

Once again, Hi, my name is Kat, and I'm a bread-aholic.

Recently, someone brought bagels and croissants to our break room. My office, if you recall, is right next to said break room...

"OOOOOH there's bagels."

I groan, I know this means that every person that walks into that room is going to mention the "B" word.. and my stomach, and bread addicted brain is going to want it. 

I had no idea.... how bad it was actually going to get.

You are not allowed to lose weight where I work. Well, let me restate that, everyone thinks it's wonderful that you are on the right track and being healthy... but, when there are snacks... it is their SICK obsession to try and push it on you... To see how strong you really are.. because by you eating some crap.. it MAKES THEM FEEL BETTER. . . . (yup, I'm heated about this one)

"Hey! Do you know there's bagels in here?" Co-Worker #1

"Oooh there's a pumpernickel.. don't you LOVE pumpernickel?" Karissa (brat brat brat)

"Chive cream cheese! Oh My!" Co-Worker #2

"Look at this spread of food.. BAGELS and CROISSANTS! and they are still WARM!" Co-Worker #4

"Kat (of course my real name is used at work), did you see the breakfast buffet in here?" My boss.

I kept politely declining.. Lots of no thank you's.

Karissa saw me weakening... She saw it becoming a problem for me.. So what did the snake do? 

"You can have one bagel.. it ISN'T going to kill you. I think you are being silly to not even have HALF of a bagel... Why is it such a big deal?" So on and so forth.

I just kept saying no thank you, that I had already had breakfast... That I really didn't want another one.

"Well... I guess because you are dieting you think that you're just better than the rest of us."

**KNEE JERK REACTION** "EXCUSE ME?" comes from my mouth in such a tone, that I knew heads turned towards my office. 

As you know, I have to keep my tone in check... at all times, so the fact that an attitude actually came from my mouth, is a REALLY big deal.

And I had to take a deep breath, and in a firm, assertive (and loud enough so everyone else caught the message) tone:
 "I am not on a diet. I have changed the way I eat. I am trying to be healthy, because it is good for me, and it is good for my family. A bagel will not kill me, but I know I cannot have just one. I know that I must slather it with cream cheese and butter.. then toast it. I know that I cannot control myself when it comes to that type of food. So I prefer to stay away from it. I wish, as a friend (Side note: a loose term really), you would respect my wishes. And try not to have so much enjoyment in watching me squirm. I would never do that to anyone who was trying to change 6 years of unhealthy, damaging eating habits. I think it's cruel. And, honestly, for that matter, I do not think I am better than anyone. If I thought I was, I wouldn't have started on this journey to be healthy, because if I was that narcissistic, I wouldn't have seen my weight or unhealthy eating as a problem. I hope this makes things clearer for you."

She blinked... several times. "Jeez. Okay, you don't need to freak out." 

"I didn't freak out. I just wanted to clear up the misconception you had about my lifestyle choices."

She walked away.

It upsets me... on a daily basis on how hard I (and others) have worked, and that people (and society) just wants to tear them down. 

I reserve my bread and sweet foods.. for the weekends, or when I go out to an amazing dinner. 
For BBQ's ....and on days that I know I have busted my ass in the gym. On those days.. I'll have a cookie, or an OREO TRUFFLE... .or a HAMBURGER WITH CHEESE! And maybe one day, when I know I am in complete control of this lifestyle.. a BAGEL (with cream cheese).

If my process isn't for you.. don't knock it... but, try and respect it a little. 


Tuesday, July 23, 2013

The rat race.

My OCD knows no bounds... I have a very structured weekday routine. 
And it is all dependent on two things:

  1. Preparation the night before: Picking out clothes, making breakfast and lunches to pack, laundry that needs to be done.. so on and so forth.
  2. My alarm going of at 5:00a.m.

This morning... #2 didn't happen.
*Giggles* I just said #2 didn't happen, and in a crude way, I find that funny...
But seriously:
The alarm didn't go off...  or well.. It said it did, it was in SNOOZE mode.. but, I do not remember it going off.. me getting my but out of bed, and snoozing it. . . . And it's loud.. I'm pretty sure it would have woken Emry up, if it kept going off.

So, with that said, I wake up from a very peaceful slumber, and realize.. "Wow, it's really bright out... waiiiit, why is it so bright out?"

5:26a... Holy shit. Holy shit. Holy shit... MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE...

Thank the gods that my father leaves for work an hour before I do.. Because, I stripped down to nothing, and started running to the bathroom... turning on the coffee pot... All nude... In 5 minutes... literally.. I was getting dressed... Pulled my hair up into something messy. Woke up Emry... Got everything done.. WHILE MOVING AT WARP SPEED.... and got out of the house on time. .. . . WITHOUT forgetting a single thing. I was proud... I was tired... I was.. still half asleep...

Somehow, the gods saw my struggle and lifted my car to the camp with 5 minutes to spare... I really don't know how that happened. I was able to go in, make sure Emry was secure with his breakfast.. and then get on the highway.

I still got to work with time to go to the gym.
To clean up, and eat my breakfast... and start work.

I was pretty amazed...

The rat race...
Oh my goodness... I never want to do that again.


Monday, July 22, 2013

This week... in life and food

This week in FOOD:

Paleo Sweet Potato Skins with Sage Pesto and Bacon
Prep Time: 10 minutes
Cook Time: 45 minutes
Yield: 8 potato skins
  • 4 sweet potatoes (scrubbed clean)
  • 1 tbsp Enzo Olive Oil
  • 1/2 cup Walnut Sage Pesto
  • 4 slices bacon
  • 1/4 cup arugula
  1. Preheat the oven to 400°.
  2. Brush olive oil on the sweet potatoes and place in the oven on a baking sheet for 45 minutes.
  3. Place the bacon on a wire rack on top of another baking sheet and into the oven for 20 minutes or until crispy.
  4. Remove the sweet potatoes and bacon from the oven.
  5. Allow the potatoes to cool for 10-15 minutes then slice in half lengthwise.
  6. Scoop out 2-3 tbsp of potato from the middle.
  7. Place a tablespoon of pesto in the center of each potato.
  8. Crumble the crispy bacon and place on top of the pesto.
  9. Top each potato skin with a few pieces of fresh arugula and serve.

Now, the only thing I did differently.. Because I'm a rockstar... is that I mixed the chopped arugula, pesto, chopped bacon, and the scooped out sweet potato.. TOGETHER.. Made it kind of a thick slop texture.. then stuffed it back into the potato.  Also: I didn't use Walnut Sage Pesto, I just went to the store and bought a jar of Classico Pesto. . . I was a little lazy.

Want the nutrition?

Per Half of Sweet Potato:

Calories: 148
Fat: 8.8 grams
Carbs: 13.8 grams
Protein: 3.3 grams

Now for our weekly Side Dish, I made Roasted Brussel Sprouts... Now don't make that face.
Super Simple to make:


2 Tablespoons Extra Virgin Olive Oil
6 cups of Brussel Sprouts


  1. Prehat oven to 400 degrees.
  2. Place EVOO and Brussel sprouts in a large enough bowl to mix oil over sprout.
  3. Sprinkle your favorite Seasoning.
  4. Bake 20 minutes or until crispy.

I used  mesquite seasoning, and S&P. They came out super tasty.

Want the Nutrition?

Per 1/2 cup of Brussel Sprout Crunch-tastic-ness:

Calories: 52
Fat: 3.3 grams
Carbs: 52.6 grams
Protein: 1.9 grams

That will be our Carb filled meal for the week.. I couldn't help it.. I wanted BOTH options... Since we have so much left over arugula, I will probably be eating that on the side, or with my lunch.

Mahi-Mahi was on super sale this week.. so I got a pound of it, and broiled it in the oven with some Italian seasonings.. This will give me the great protein I will need for my workouts.


This week in LIFE:

I reached my goal of 135 lbs.

See the in shape skinny girl! Do you SEE her?!

Klay has gone off for the week. He is attending a really important training class. Unfortunately he is two hours north of us... which means he is staying in a hotel for the duration of the class. This will be really important for his job, and could really help further his career in the long run. Emry isn't thrilled about it. There is a lot of PTSD attached to men leaving for "work" or "training" and never coming back... Klay and I are assuring him on a daily basis that nothing has changed, and this is just one week, in our very long life as a family. Klay intends to call every night.. I believe he will.. I also want Emry to do a great project during the week, so he can tell Klay what he did, while they were apart. Emry loves him so.. They have this amazing bond.

For me, the distance.. is ... interesting... Even when Klay maintained the apartment we saw him most nights.. but, when he got rid of the apartment and moved into the townhouse (so we could save money before buying our new home) we've been together... every day... every night.. for about 7 months now... And in the grand scheme of things... this is the first entire week we've been apart, in the (nearly) 3 years we've been together. I think distance makes the heart grow fonder. I also think that we will gain some perspective and appreciation for each other... So when he returns.. we'll just.. well.. it will really confirm what we got going on here.

The heat wave is officially over here in NY... I didn't run the A/C at all this weekend.. and this morning. For the first time in 7 days.. I felt confident to turn off the ceiling fans in the house.

With Klay being away, and Karate camp over for Emry.. Emry is taking the car ride in with me... He goes to a camp about 25 minutes from my work. They take him on amazing trips and he really loves it there. What he doesn't love.. well.. is waking up with me and leaving as early as we do. He grabs a glass of juice in the morning.. gets dressed... and then he will eat breakfast at the camp when he gets there... It's an intense morning... I wake him up as late as I can.. so he isn't too tired... But, it means that he has to get up and get done... as quickly as possible. 

He did well this morning.
We'll see how he does tomorrow.

And now, I sit here at work...
Typing this post, and doing work on the side... 

Can't wait for the week to be over...
Gosh... is it Friday Yet?

Tell me about your weekend?
And what your week looks like this week!

Stay Safe Friends.

Friday, July 19, 2013

"I'm a really easy going person"

If someone ever says:
"I'm a really easy going person."

But then starts to bitch about the stress that everyone else puts upon her...

She is not an easy going person.

If someone says:
"I'm not upset."

But, then decides to "think out loud" and BITCH about something..

She was actually upset.

If someone cannot stand 30 seconds of silence between conversations..

And has to fill the silence with her chitter chatter...

She is afraid of the silence, and that is not a good thing....

I have always been an avid "people watcher"... 
The human dynamic, is very interesting...
My own, is the most interesting of them all...

I see my flaws, and my social awkwardness daily...
And, I make an effort to try and be better every day...
Not for other people, but for me..

I have been trying very hard this week not to engage Gia...
I am refusing to feed her toxic behavior, in hopes that it will not flow out onto me.
Conversations with her are truly exhausting...
Physically, mentally, and emotionally for me....

At first, she was very weird about me being quiet... And would stop by... my office, regardless of how much work I had piled in front of me... She is always mooching off my candy supply.

(Have I told you, I am a candy/snack hoarder... I don't eat it.. but oh boy do I love to look at it piling up in my desk... I've admitted it, so at least I am not in denial).

Now even though, I do not mind sharing my snacks... It gets to the point, where you wonder.. 
Hey chica... You know you're going to get hungry... Why do you not have any snacks?

And then, mid-week, the proverbial poo hit the fan, and I called out Gia on something.
Let me give you the back story.

Last week, I ate mostly raw foods... Not because I wanted to.. but, because I had to.
My father had bought the worlds BIGGEST amount of Fruits and Veggies.
I didn't want them to go bad... so, for lunch, I brought some hummus, and fruits and veggies to dip.

This week, even though I have been withdrawn... I noticed Gia not eating. And when she did eat, it was just fruit. Around Wednesday, she told me, that she had been having these headaches all week, and how tired and sluggish she has been feeling. Lightbulb went over my head. I started asking her about her lunches.. what she was eating at home... Turns out: She had been skipping breakfast, because "it was too hot too eat"... and eating fruit because it was cooling... (and then she slipped in that she was trying to lose a few pounds).. but that she was eating a real dinner. Which consisted of even more carbs and fatty meats. 

I knew... I asked her, "Are you eating only fruit, because of what I was eating last week?" 
She said no... but it was clear she was lying.. it was one of those long No's.
And I explained to her, that even though I was eating raw fruits and veggies, that I always had the hummus, or another protein source. That I do not skip breakfast... And my breakfast is protein filled. Why? because Protein SITS with you longer. She's a medical assistant, she should know about how carbs turn into sugar and then you have NOTHING in your body! (basically.) And then I told her, that if she was trying to lose weight, that filling up with natural carbs, and then bread and greasy meat.. was not the way to go. She said she understood..

She bought a sandwich that day... but, at least there was protein in it.... 

It kind of scares me that she is trying to mimic what I am doing, but in a completely unhealthy way. 
I had to sit down with my app, and go through my daily intakes for the past 2 months.. I had to make sure that I wasn't giving ANYONE the wrong impression. 

And, honestly, I swear, with ALL honesty, I am not. 50% of my food intake is protein, 45% is Carbs (most of that from the natural carbs found in fruits and veggies, and a little from bread.. i love bread) and 5% is fat. That is an awesome breakdown of food.

But, since I spoke with Gia, and showed concern about her health... it opened the door back to her bitching again... 

( I realize that I have used the B-word, a lot... I apologize.. but, that's kind of where I am today with this )


It will either click with Gia, that she is being crazy...
or it won't...
Time will tell...

I will always be nice, and helpful.. It's who I am...
But, I just won't be as.. involved.

What about you?
Any co-worker drama?

Happy Friday Friends!

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Scary Dream - Real Reaction

Last night, I went to bed.. and laid awake for what seemed like eternity.
I have our turtle lamp on, which sets this great orangey hue across the entire room... 
I'm laying there, feeling the humidity start to break... and then... 

I notice the closet door moving. . . 
I focus on it, I can't be seeing what I am seeing...
And... just right out of a horror film, these LONG fingers curl around the closet door, and begin to push it open just slightly.
freaked me out

The hand Flourishes a Wave with it's long fingers, and starts to pull back into the darkness of the closet.

I howled, so loud, that it came through into reality.
I was out of bed.. I was running out of the room...
Klay must have thought I was being murdered, he bounded across the house.

And all I could exclaim: "There's something in the closet.. I hand came out of the closet".

My chest was POUNDING...
I couldn't breathe...
I was freaking out..

I slunk into the kitchen to lean against the counter.
Holding my chest.
This is what a heart attack feels like... I am having a heart attack.

Of course, nothing was there...
He came back from our room, and tried to comfort me...
I just kept putting my head in his chest. 
It was just SO real.
So very real.

Needless to say, he came and laid down with me again, until I fell back to sleep... for good this time....

I am surprised I didn't wake the whole entire house.
I just howled out.. I was so ENTIRELY scared...

I thought I would share with you.

A little embarrassed now, but, well... It was too weird not to share...

Wednesday, July 17, 2013


Can you believe it's already Wednesday? 
Every time I see the above commercial.. I giggle... I think camels are like cows... ADORABLE.
It's one of those creatures created by whatever watches from above us... to make us all laugh.

I woke up feeling refreshed, and I am not as tired as I have been. I am still going to see my PCP later on this month, but, it's good not to feel like road kill. 

I'm thinking it had something to do with the humidity, and how many times a night I was waking up to take a drink of water, or try desperately to get cooler. 

We'll see, blood work is still a wonderful idea. 

I want to thank everyone for their support and concern (emails, comments, etc.) regarding my journey to a healthy lifestyle. It's wonderful to have such a vast group of people who care about my well being... who motivate me, and keep me going.

Today, I am sitting in one of my "new dresses" ... One of the dresses that Lissa gave me. And, I think this is due to the brand name on the tag... but, it is sized as a Petite Small. It's a very overwhelming feeling to wear this dress... and actually be able to fit into it.

I have to admit, I was scared for a long time... Not of being more shapely.. but, that I had no choice in the matter. It took a while for me to realize that in order for me to make this choice... to really commit to this lifestyle.. I had to really work for it. They tell you that your metabolism will change once you leave your teens (then your 20's, 30's, 40's) but, honestly, who of us believes that nonsense? I sure as heck didn't. 

When I was a teen... well... My mother didn't keep junk in the house... she didn't keep a lot of FOOD in the house. Not that we were poor... it was a control thing... she wanted to have control over every aspect of our lives.  My main source of food was from the school lunches. And with that meal.. I wasn't very picky... I always chose something that just looked tasty... Cookies, Soda, Burgers, Fries, Nachos and Cheese... French Toast Stick Day (My personal fav)... But, that was 10 years ago. 

A lot has happened to me in those 10 years, and some of them definitely did damage to me, my body and my metabolism. I had to retrain my body. I had to say "Hey BODY! This is healthy and yummy... and THIS IS NOT! We can have this... but, remember, it's not what you want to eat all the time." 

And the long conversation of: "HEY BODY! I know you 'hate' it.. but we have to exercise, even if we do become SKINNY.. we will not be in shape.. Look at you, you can't even make it up a flight of stairs!" 

I overcame a lot. I have learned a lot about me, my physical (& inner strength) and life. 

When I met Klay, I knew that I had to love me.. before loving anyone else completely. Well, other than my monster man (Emry)... once I had him.. I loved him... more than life. I do love myself. But, I also loved my flaws a little too much. Klay, Emry, my dad, and the rest of my friends and family deserve to love and be loved by the best me I can be. And that's another very important part about this journey.

Healthy Lifestyle = Happy Lifestyle. 

Making TIME for what's important.. and making PROGRESS everyday... 
(You agree Baking in my Bathing Suit?)

Happy Wednesday People.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013


I AM A SIZE 6.... and I can BUTTON a pair of Baggy SIZE 4!


This is a big day for me.

I might have already said... my friend Lissa, was going to give me some of her bigger clothes...

Well, she could only find a few pair of pants... mostly size 6's and one size 4... Still in amazing, practically new condition...

I was a little eager.
So I went upstairs to my departments ladies room... and tried them on.

All of the Size 6's fit.
I could button the Size 4's....

There are dresses too....

I am over the moon right now.

Hard work
and Believing in yourself...

You can accomplish GREAT things.

I need a new belt

The purpose of a belt is to hold ones pants up...
Or to define a waist line in a really cute dress...

Okay.. Well...... 
We all know that my pants just don't fit anymore. I don't even try to put on a belt with those bad boys... However, I figured, I could use a belt to jazz up one of the cotton dresses I own... Since they are officially 2 sizes to big... 

That was the plan.
I put the belt on the tightest loop...
Fell down to my lower hips.
Which is REALLY freaking awesome..
But, seriously?
I really wanted to make this work... So, I went to my sewing kit, and found my leather needles. Thick and Durable enough to push through leather, without bending the needle. I made a hole... where the belt would actually fit my waist.. and then opened it up slightly with a very sharp kitchen knife...

The belt fits now... Sort of... But, you can tell that I really shortened this belt... SIGNIFICANTLY. 
Looking down at the hole I made... it is at least 3 inches from the "tightest" original hole. 


It's official.... I need to go clothes shopping... I need to bite this bullet. 
**Sighs** Not looking forward to spending the cash... But, I figure if I hit up a thrift store or two.. I might be able to find some things on the cheap cheap... 

Anyone want to donate clothes (Size 6 or 8) to a shrinking Kateri?

Monday, July 15, 2013


My overall energy level has been very dismal as of recently.
I posted recently, that my legs have felt like they couldn't hold me up for a morning workout... This may be a gross exaggeration... because I still get a pretty great workout regardless... It is just weird that my legs feel that way.

I've come to notice, especially today, that my overall energy level has really dropped.

This is starting to concern me.

I take a myriad of vitamins and supplements... 5 days a week. Why not on the weekends?
I forget too... My morning routine on the weekend is way different than it is on the weekday.
But still.... like clockwork Monday - Friday...I take my supplements. 

I am considering getting an appointment with my PCP and getting some blood work done. 
During my pregnancy, I was anemic... So perhaps it's an iron issue... But, it could be a deficiency in Vitamin B or D... or any vitamin really...It's why I am thinking the blood work could let me know if:

1) We got a problem here
2) Or I am pushing my body too hard.

I plan on calling the doctor in a few, and seeing when I can get in for just an overall "well" visit... 
I'm due.. and honestly so is Emry... 

I am normally not a coffee drinker, but I have been so tired, that I have been looking for that extra boost. That's how I know something isn't right.

Klay thinks it's my body telling me I need a break.
But, I keep telling him.. I'm not going crazy on these workouts... I really only burn 300 - 500 calories a day... And honestly, if you read any health magazines, blogs, authors, etc... You know that they strive for sometimes double those numbers in a day... 

I am switching my eating this week.. I have added more protein into my meals... So, that may help with a little bit of the fatigue. I was noticing that a lot of my lunches at work, were all fruits and veggies... with a little hummus or bean salad... My protein intake was on the low side. I think a lot of that had/has to do with the heat. I pack my and Emry's lunch the night before... It's been 90 degrees outside, and humid as anything... I think it's just easier for me to pack light and cool food options! 
This week, I have made more protein rich options available to me... and I plan to use them. 

It may just be a bad couple of weeks for me.. .We all go through them.. Right? Being exhausted?


Please send out a prayer (or good energy) for my friend Lauren... she's very pregnant, but isn't due until September. She has us all worried that the baby is coming way sooner than they think... Keep her and baby Brooke in your thoughts... I think they got her due date wrong... but, she shouldn't deliver the baby until next month at the EARLIEST.

The Good and the Bad... but still tasty!

My son had a friend over this weekend, and the mother was going to linger around while they played. She is super nice, so I figured, I never really entertain... So... Why not have a tasty dessert?

 Only 3 ingredients, 5 steps, EASY UNLESS YOU ARE LAZY!
**Warning** These are very addictive & melt in your mouth!!

Oreo Truffles

1 package of Oreo Cookies
1 block cream cheese, softened
1 pack Cooking Chocolate (Hershey's Semi sweet chocolate chips the best)

1. Place Oreo Cookies in a bag/blender and smash/blend until it is the consistency of dirt.
2. Mix the softened cream cheese into the smashed oreos.
3. Roll the mixture into balls.
4. Melt chocolate in the microwave.
5. Cover balls in chocolate then leave to set in the fridge. —

These are Awful... Awfully tasty...

But, here's the breakdown of them. (Because I am insane like that.)

Nutritional Information (per ball)

Calories: 214
Fat: 13.5 grams
Carbs: 22.7 grams
Protein: 2.7 grams

Needless to say I ate one or two more of these than I should.
We combined it with a little Raspberry Dessert Wine... 
And the kids played for the better part of the afternoon...

So, in essence, it was a Mommy date as well!

For the week, I prepared a Citrus Pork with Mixed Vegetables.


(For Citrus Pork)
6 Porkchops (cut lean)
2 Cup Water
1/2 Cup Orange Juice
2 Tbsp Lemon Juice
2 Tbsp Garlic Powder
2 Tbsp Ground Cumin
2 Tbsp Parsley Flakes
2 Tbsp Pumpkin Pie Seasoning 

(For Mixed Veggies)
2 Green Bell Peppers Diced into Chunks
1 Large Onion 
3 Purple Parsnips
1 can Chipotle Peppers in Adobo Sauce (open can, and rough chop the peppers.. keep the sauce.)
As many cloves of garlic as you would like to mince.


1. Take dry seasonings for the pork, and mix them onto a plate evenly.
2. Pat dry the pork chops, and press both sides into the dry seasoning mixture.
3. In a large pot, combine water, OJ, and lemon juice. Bring to a low boil.
4. Place steamer tray into pot, and place the pork evenly around the steamer tray.
5. Cover pot, and allow the slow boil to continue underneath the pork for about 8-10 minutes.
6. Remove pork, and steamer tray from pot. Leave remaining liquid in pot.
7. Take all ingredients for the mixed veggies,and put them in the pot, with the remaining liquid.
8. Lower heat to medium low, vent pot lid, and simmer the veggies until all are soft, and the liquid has started to thicken... about 10-12 minutes. Give it a couple stirs to see progress.
9. While vegetables are cooking, take the cooled down pork chops and dice them into bite sized pieces.
10. When veggies are done... allow them to cool a little bit, and then toss them with the pork.
11. TA-DA! Enjoy!
This is usually more ingredients than I like to work with.. I'm a no fuss.. easy meal type of girl... But, this was actually super easy to make.. and smells INCREDIBLE. I know that steaming your meat might freak you out... But, trust me.. you are cutting the calories in half.. and reserving all the great flavor of the meat. 

Let's talk about the Nutritional Information of this dish! It makes about 12 small servings or 6 big ones. I go with a smaller serving, so that I can pair it with a larger salad... or a small amount of rice... or even stuff it into a pita!

Serving Size: 1/2 cup
Calories: 63.5
Fat: 1.6 grams
Carbs: 9.7 grams
Protein: 7.5 grams 

So as you can see.. we got the GOOD... the BAD ... BUT STILL TASTY!

It goes to show you, that regardless of how determined and focused I am about becoming Healthy, and Fit... I am not blind to the amazing flavors of an OREO cookie. 

You have to find your balance.
You have to be able to look yourself in the mirror and say:
"Today wasn't my finest healthy moment... But, I'm going to be better tomorrow."

And I did.
And you will too!

I even got Klay to take a run with me on Sunday night.
We did about 0.8 miles.. in about 8 minutes... He was proud of himself, since he really doesn't work out with me... and I was proud of us too. I really do not like to run on the pavement.. my knees just hate it.. But, I have to get over that... I have to figure out the balance.. On the weekends I do not have access to my work gym... So, I need to do little things here and there.. and a quick run to the little league field and back.. is that!

I then tricked Klay into doing situps with me... Not sure how I managed that one... 
But, we did.. and I felt great afterwards...
But, I am a little sore today.
Still went to the gym.
Still broke a decent sweat...

How was your weekend?
What does your week in food look like? 

Friday, July 12, 2013

Round 2

My legs are still having that shaky feeling... so, once again I faced the stationary bike.
I tried a different regimen, an interval hill one... 20 minutes... 5 miles... I think that's pretty awesome.

I am toning my quadriceps, hamstrings and glut max while doing this... basically THIGHS AND BUTT... Which is one of my remaining thicker areas....

Honestly, my thighs have toned significantly since February, but I still have some of that flabby meat on them. I'm Sicilian... it's a hard area to tone. 

Also, my abdominal area... particularly in my lower abs, and obliques (muffin top area)... are still a little meaty... But even at my smallest, I had a pooch.. So as long as it's getting smaller, as I get smaller.. I'm pretty cool with that as well..

The other day, while on facebook... 
(Side note: I am not an avid facebook user, I try very hard not to become addicted to it, I mostly use it for my family that lives far away...)
I have a couple of friends on their.. One of them showed a picture of his beautiful wife. She is really into her fitness... and has .... No lie... An ENTIRELY sculpted body. Not crazy weight lifter chick... but, she has AMAZING muscle tone, and not a like of fat on her... NOT AT ALL....

I don't want to look like that... I think she looks amazing... but, personally... that isn't for me.

But, I found myself really staring at the picture... Particularly at her abs. She has sculpted 6 pack... and tight obliques... She makes a washboard look flabby....

I started to self-doubt... even though I don't even WANT to look like that... 
Maybe I am not working out hard enough... Maybe I am not pushing HARD enough...
I had to stop myself. I had to assure myself that I don't even want that.. and that this woman was already really skinny... toning is way easier when you aren't starting out with that extra cushion.

I have lost a tremendous amount of weight since February... I have toned my body as well... I am look and feel healthier than EVER before... These are BIG victories.And I am proud of those things.

I am doing this.. and will continue to do this... Because it makes me feel good.

Happy Friday Friends... Do what makes you feel good today!

Thursday, July 11, 2013

My foe: the stationary bike

If I am doing a cardio workout, I really do prefer an elliptical. 
But this morning, I almost felt as if my legs wouldn't carry my out of bed...

I still wanted to workout, however, I was dreading the elliptical.
That's an understatement, every time I envisioned myself on the elliptical... my hips, legs and feet began to hurt more.

What to do... What to do...

I got it through my mind that I would try the stationary bike.
I've never been a fan of it, before I lost the weight, just sitting on a bike hurt...
But, the reason for trying it... if my legs decided to give out... at least I was already sitting.

So, I began to ride... 20 minutes and 4.5 miles later, I was done....
The calorie burn is vastly different between the elliptical and stationary bike.. probably due to the fact that you are sitting. The point of the matter is, I did cardio... even though my body was all YUCK about it.

The rest of my workout went great, better than normal even... I found myself doing an extra 5 minutes of leg presses... And my situps (combined with russian twists) seemed to go off better as well.

I suppose the stationary bike isn't so bad. (*Gasp* did I just say that?)

Now, I'm trying to figure out.. so that my LoseIt! app reads the calories burned correctly...

Is 4.5 miles in 20 minutes a Light Bike Ride, a Moderate Bike Ride, or a Vigorous Bike Ride?

Let's look it up shall we?

(10 minutes later)

Well now.. that's OOBER frustrating...
The masses are split down the middle on this one...

Most basically say that is your heart rate is in the "Fat Burn" area that it's Vigorous...
And if it's in (or under) the "Cardio Burn" it's Low/Moderate...
My heart rate was right in the middle... the entire time...

I'm going with moderate. I think that's safe. 
I was pedaling at 90-100 RPM's .... I say that's pretty moderate/vigorous....
And the apps sometimes are a little high on the calories burn... So.. I think it's a safe bet.


It's Thursday, and the week has just FLOWN by.... 
I guess between the stress at home, and the stress at work... I didn't notice how fast it was going.

I have almost lost all the weight I gained while at my sisters... Which I am pretty proud about... 
Emry still has one more week of karate camp, which Klay takes him too, so I will be able to continue on this vigorous workout regimen until the 19th. Then I will go back to my moderate workout. 
Which should technically be easier... right? RIGHT? I sure hope so.

I am finding that Gia, is a real drainer... she's always upset about something... always trying to fuel someone else's fire.... And, it gets a little exhausting to deal with. I have to protect my energy reserve like a fortress.. I can feel her trying to take my light...

It all hit me at once.

Yesterday, wasn't a great day for me... I was thoroughly exhausted.. but, after I got home... after Emry's actual karate class (I'll explain about this in a minute) I felt 10x better... And then I realized...
I hadn't spoken with Gia in 3 hours... And it occurred to me.. She is the first person I see in the morning... She comes right into my office (regardless if my door is shut or not).. and she will talk about her "problems" for at least 20 minutes... If I do get a word in.. she tries to over dramatize anything I say. She does it at lunch time... She does it to Karissa at lunchtime.. and that's a big deal.. because no one gets a word in with Karissa.... Karissa even told her to "let her finish" after being repeatedly interrupted.. after Gia kept escalating a certain conversation... We ended yesterday, with Gia trying to tell me that the person who trained her, Kathy, was rude to her, and refused to help her. 
That kind of hit home... and I know Kathy, and she would never ever say anything close to that. 

Leaving work helped.... So I know today, I need to be more reserved.. It's been a rough week, and I need all my energy. 

TO Emry and Karate Camp... 

Since Monday Emry has been going to a daily Karate Camp at his Dojo.. Klay takes him, and picks him up. It's 6 hours long, and on two nights a week... he goes back for a class. He has been doing Go Shin Ryu for 7 hours a day.. and will do this again until the 19th.

He is LOVING it.
I know, who would have thought?!?!?!
I thought by yesterday, at the very latest, he'd be all, I hate this... This stinks...
But.. he's doing remarkable.. and that shows in his class time.

And... well... my 6 year old is getting very.. very... muscular!
It's kind of weird!

But, good for him.

As long as he likes it.

I suppose I should start working...
Until later...

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

a day...

Today was a long and strenuous day...
Filled with lots and lots of work....

I just finished... and organized my pile of work for tomorrow....
And, I just want no one to bother me for the next hour or so... (1 hour 3 minutes to be exact)

58 minutes... people ask silly questions sometimes.....

I really have nothing today...

Our conversation with my father went better than expected... but, all of us are at a loss here...
There's no easy way to approach this situation... 
Without the girlfriend feeling like she's being rejected....

But, that's not really our issue... it's hers....

It's just hard... 

So, I'm a little discouraged... Because I feel... that this situation.. is something I will have to be involved in... and don't want to be... for the long haul.... 

Tomorrow... I will have something amazing to say...

I hope.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013


I don't feel like getting into it... not in the exacts... but, I didn't sleep at all last night.
Literally, I waited up until 11p, to try and have a conversation with my father... and that never happened. I laid in bed, and so badly wanted to sleep... so that today wouldn't be such a crummy day, and alas... it didn't happen. 

I stared at my ceiling from 11p - 5a... 

Not too happy about that. I basically had to set an appointment for Klay and I to speak with my father. . . . IN MY OWN HOUSE, I HAD TO MAKE AN APPOINTMENT.

Makes me a little sick. 

I got into work super early today... since I hadn't slept, I managed to get done really quickly this morning.... and I worked out for about 45 minutes in the gym, and then did 15 minutes of stairs (which roughly comes out to 24 flights of stairs down and up.) 

I am feeling very nervous about the conversation with my father.

I never thought that I would have to set ground rules with him, regarding our living situation. We've lived together for almost 8 years now.. and never had such an issue. I'm just afraid of the outcome... I love my dad... I don't want to hurt him... but, I feel like I have to walk on eggshells through my own house... like I have to keep my purse with me in my bedroom while I sleep... and that I can't live the way we normally live. 

*Sighs* It's a rough situation... to say the least... and I would love to vent about it.. but, it's so much... that... well.. it has something to do with the girlfriend, and by something, I mean EVERYTHING.

So now, I am sitting at work.. running through all possible scenarios for this conversation.
Not liking the way any of them turns out.

Trying to be objective and mature...

But... It just doesn't seem to be playing out in my head.

I almost wish that he could SEE what was going on... and how uncomfortable the situation is making us feel. 

I guess time will tell...

Thanks for reading my cryptic vent/rant.


Monday, July 8, 2013

Quick & Healthy - How I like my food!

and I prepared chicken and veggies in my wok.

This week, since I was only really home for 1.25 days, I needed a quick meal for the week.
Insert a similar Wok'd Experiment.

The vegetables I used this time were:
Tri-Colored Sweet Peppers.

I marinated them in some garlic & lemon juice, and a little creole seasoning.
I let them sit in the fridge for about half an hour... to absorb the flavors.

I used the wok until the carrots started to slightly soften (I like my cooked carrots a little crunchy).
I took the vegetables out, and left the remaining liquid (sweated off from the veggies & lemon juice) in the wok.

I had seasoned some chicken tenders with Salt & Pepper, plus a Salad Supreme Seasoning....
What is salad supreme seasoning?

Well, it's what you are supposed to use on Pasta Salad...
But.. well.. I use seasoning however I want... It had a good aroma...
And who says it wouldn't work on chicken!

I placed the chicken tenders in the hot liquid of the wok.
And covered for a few minutes.
I waited until the chicken had cooked almost completely on the outside.
I then lowered the temperature on the wok, removed the chicken, and cut into tiny bite-size pieces. 
I placed the cut up chicken back into the wok, turned it up high... and proceeded to finish the cooking of the chicken in the liquid.

Week's worth of Food Complete within ... oh.. about 30 minutes.

We also had an obscene amount of fruit...
So, I made a large fruit salad (for snacking):

I used:

Nice and summery fruit salad. 

And, just in case I got bored of the above meal...

I made a Garbanzo & Corn Chipotle Salad.

2 cans Garbanzo Beans (Drained and Washed and Re-Drained)
1 can Green Giant Chipotle Corn
Lemon and Lime Juices
Tri-Color Sweet Peppers (washed and diced)
Spicy Adobo Seasoning to taste.

Mix and Refrigerate.
 Tasty Tasty Tasty... and all for 88 calories a serving (about 3 ounces)

So hopefully the men folk don't plow through all the food in 3 days...
*fingers crossed*

I am pretty happy with the food I have made this week.

What about you?
What do your meals for the week look like?


Just remember.. what happens on vacation... stays on ... your waist

My mini vacation to my sisters...

I really rather not go into the complete shenanigans of it all...
But let's just recap:

Late Wednesday Night Drive
Thursday Pool, BBQ, Carnival & Fireworks
Friday Lake George, Hiking, Beach, Town Gallivanting
Saturday Saratoga... Lunch.... Gelato... Carousel.
Saturday Night drive home.
Sunday Clean Cook Clean Cook Clean Cook...

Overall, we had a wonderful time.

Little things... here and there...
But, nothing that would tarnish the good memories.

I gained... 3 pounds back.
I am 8 pounds from my secondary goal...
Kind of disheartening..
But, I got right back on the horse this morning.
Did my exercise regimen.
I know I will get down where I want to be...
Maybe not when the App says I will...
But, most definitely before the NYRF starts.

And that is all that matters.

Now, where did I go wrong?
I logged everything into the app...
I went wrong with
*Portion Size: Going out to eat is tasty.. but sucky
*Carb Carb Carb Carb Carb-ity Carbs!
*Not enough Water.
* More meat, not enough veggies...
*Ice cream.. two days in a row...

It isn't the end of the world.
But, I know exactly what I did wrong...
Will I repeat it, the next time we go away?

That's all I got on this one, I AM HUMAN.

while we are talking about my human food driven eating...

My Top 2 favorite Fatty Indulgences of the weekend?

*Ben & Jerry's makes Coffee Buzz Buzz Buzz: Coffee Ice Cream with Dark Chocolate Chunks. I got oreos on top too.
* Irish Spring Rolls: Think of a Reuben Sandwich stuffed in a spring roll...

I got to wear my bikini.. and felt completely confident in it.
I got a little bit of a tan... Feeling pretty sun kissed today!

What about you?
Tell me about your 4th of July Weekend!