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Thursday, November 28, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving - Let me tell you 28 things I am thankful for 

Well, people the day is here! 
Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours.

I would like to take a moment to tell you the 28 things I am thankful for this Thanksgiving.
(why 28? well everyone else is doing 30, and since turkey day falls on the 28th, I figure this is much more appropriate) 

  1.  The way the air smells during the months between fall and winter. The crisp air, with the faint smell of burning wood. It's nostalgic and brings me joy.
  2. Friends who understand and love me... regardless of how eccentric (read: freaking nuts) I am.
  3. How a mug of hot tea can not only physically warm you, but light up your soul.
  4. A stable and steady career; filled with interesting people, amazing fellowship... and regular reflective time with the Almighty.
  5. Internal growth and maturity... Some women hate getting older. I welcome it... it allows me to become more centered.
  6. Emry... without him, everything else wouldn't be as it were. He was the turning point in my life... his birth lit something in me... and has brought me to where I am today.
  7. Crackling fireplaces.... and how we all sit around it, enjoying conversation, instead of vegging out in front of the television.
  8. Exercise, and the fact that I know longer dread doing it. That I have found a piece of me that I never knew existed.
  9. Chocolate Chip Pancakes with Strawberries and Caramel Sauce: I am really thankful for the Chef/Cook that allowed me to make this concoction on my birthday, and thus revealed a new favorite breakfast delicacy!
  10. Love and Friendship that is found all in one person. It's always been right, and he knows it. I am thankful every moment of each day for Klay... and what we have.
  11. Being Deaf in One Ear. I am thankful that I lost my hearing when I was younger... it taught me to listen more closely.. to maintain eye contact when someone is speaking to me, and how to really hear the truth.
  12. My 45 minute (one way) commute to work. Without these moments of individual freedom... I would never be able to fulfill my dream of being the next Voice or American Idol. Singing is something that relieves the stress and makes me truly happy.
  13. Purple Highlighters . . . They make my boring reports all the more colorful and allow me to have "fun" while reviewing!
  14. Overall health.. from  mine, to Klay's, to Emry's, to my dad's... I'm glad we're all healthy.
  15. Laughter.
  16. For the memories that we build each day. For so long, I thought that I would not have anything special or important to remember. Now, Emry, Klay and I.. are making this wonderful life together... with fantastic memories.
  17. Local Grown Fruits and Veggies... That have shown me how awful store bought produce can be, and why we need to support all local businesses.. whether it be boutiques or farms.
  18. L.L Bean Slippers... Hideous as they are.. I am thankful for the people who created them.. they keep my toesies so WARM!
  19. Being able to live comfortably... without fear.
  20. For a kitchen that allows me to cook for those I love.
  21. Seeing beauty and grace in odd places....
  22. Blogging, and all the wonderful things it has brought into my life.
  23. Indiana Popcorn Company - for they make the most amazing chocolate covered kettle corn.
  24. Pictures, and cameras... So that we can capture all the interesting happenings in our world!
  25. My family. Even though some of them are far away, and I don't get to see them as much as I would like... I am thankful for who they are, and how our bond transcends.
  26. Books... and Poetry
  27. Hot Baths...
  28. Positivity, Light... and striving for it each day of this journey we call life... The ability to see all of the positivity and light through the darkness.... 

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.
I hope you all enjoy your day.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

My daddy loves me...

If you remember, the 2nd pre-race training session did not go as planned.... and left me rather discouraged

Well, because the weather forecast was predicting 19 degree temperatures, I was getting MORE than hesitant about running... 

Enter, DADDY... yes, I am a 29 year old woman, and I will always call me father Daddy.

My father is a very kind and generous man. He could see on my face how discouraged I was, how I was beginning to doubt my capabilities... and that maybe, just maybe this goal wasn't actually attainable... 
And he decides that I need cold gear running stuff, and GOOD stuff too.. because he is certain that this race isn't the end for me... He can see how happy running is making me... and how I am accomplishing a lot more than just miles and times.

Monday night, we went to our local Dick's Sporting Goods, and spent a very long time in the women's running attire section. Seeing what felt good on, seeing what I could layer... what I shouldn't layer... the whole nine yards.

We ended up with a lot of Under Armour products... 
  1. Because they fit the best, without feeling like I was too restricted for movement.
  2. The prices, although not exactly cheap, were fair.. based on what the gear is designed to do. 
  3. Had a range of color options (I'm a girl.. SHOOT ME.. I like to coordinate).
I purchased from their "ColdGear" and "Infared".. This is what I got:

Women’s ColdGear®Infrared Thermo Full ZipHoody 

Women's UA ColdGear®Compression Leggings

UA Ignite Crew Socks

Experia Powered by Thor-Lo Pads Sock - Dick's Sporting Goods

Experia Powered by Thor-Lo Pads Sock

Reebok Men's Performance Running Gloves - Dick's Sporting Goods

Reebok Men's Performance Running Gloves

Under Armour Women's Craze Graphic Winter Headband - Dick's Sporting Goods

Under Armour Women's Craze Graphic Winter Headband

 Now, I didn't want to buy ANY  of this stuff... I knew I had to get pants.. and I was dreading it.. but, of course he insisted... So, over $200 later... This is what I have.

I tried running in the pants on Tuesday, and let me tell you.. They kept my at BOILING temperature in the gym.. so I am sure they can withstand the cold. Oh man.. I think I may use these under my hiking pants when we do winter hiking!

I know my dad purchased these things for me, because, he knows that this is important to me, and that (in his mind) I am going to really get into this running thing..

Am I?
Who knows.. I am taking it one step at a time (no pun intended, well, maybe a little pun).

I know that after the race, I am planning on taking a break from running in general, for at  least a week or two...

My foot/ankle, is feeling much better.. but, I think that resting it after the race, and only doing the stationary bike or even the elliptical.. is a good idea.. I think the constant impact may be a factor with this phantom pain. . . .

The race is tomorrow... and I am getting excited...

Send good thought... send prayers... send positive energy.

I promise.. I will try to at least post the results on Thursday.... if not, Monday morning!

Stay blessed Friends!

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Our Week in Food: Nothing Spectacular!

Every once in a while, I let Emry pick the meal for the week. This week, he said "TACOS".

I know what you are thinking, who do you keep tacos for a week? That sounds gross?
You're right it does... It's called... Many tuperwear containers... and a little patience.

I made individual sides, to build the tacos....
  • Crumbled Ground Beef, seasoned with cumin, garlic, chipotle chili pepper, Bacon Molasses Seasoning.. and whatever else I grabbed from the cupboard. Once the ground beef was perfectly crumbled and browned, I removed it using a slotted spoon, and tried to leave as much of the left over beef grease in the pan. You never need to use extra oil with these types of dishes... Just use what the meat leaves behind... 
  • I cut up 2 onions, 2 green peppers, and 2 red peppers into slices, and then I sauteed them in the beef grease. Once they were done, I took them and I layed them ontop of a papertowel covered cutting board. This absorbed the unnecessary grease from the veggies. Yes, there is a little level of grease that is acceptable! Just saying.
  • You can either shred your own, or buy it.... I bought 2 bags of shredded taco cheese (cheddar/jack blend).... 
  • I cut up Red and Green tomatos, and shredded some Iceberg lettuce.... 
  •  I purchased extra taco shells.

VIOLA.. Dinner was done. It isn't the healthiest.. but it's definitely comfort food, plus, the boy will eat it, and the menfolk too.

Now, how am I eating this?

Well, I skip the actual taco. I take a little meat, a little sauteed veggies, a lot of iceberg and tomatoes.. and I make a pseudo taco salad... you know.. with out the actual TACO. It doesn't need dressing since the meat and the sauteed veggies already have the tasty acceptable grease.

And that's that.

I'm pretty sure the men folk have had 6-9 tacos each already this week. And that means they love it... and I'm happy with that.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Running Discouragement: When sometimes a positive outlook doesn't yield a positive result....

On Sunday, I had another pre-race training session. I was super psyched for it, even though, my ankle has been acting up more... Anyway...

I was excited up until Saturday evening at around 6p... when it started to FLURRY out. . . So, I check my weather app.. and I notice that Sunday is supposed to be 28 degrees as the HIGH.. and that more than likely the Training Session was going to be in windy 20 degree'ish weather. 

I woke up on Sunday, woke up 7a, and the thermostat registered at 19 degrees. Wonderful... with the wind chill.. it felt like 8 degrees. I knew it was a bad idea, but I got my gear on, plus an extra headband to cover my ears and a light weight hiking jacket... and went out to meet the group. 

Vastly smaller group... I completely understood why... 

And we started to run, and my BODY was so angry with me. The little bit of skin exposed was blistering and turning purple. This is not an exaggeration... My skin was turning PURPLE... my hands hurt (I didn't think I needed them, my hands get super hot and sweaty when I run.. but THIS was a bad idea...)

A mile.. I made it a mile.. and I had to stop.. I was freezing, my chest hurt from the cold air.. and my ANKLE was on FIRE (ICE FIRE, I thought I was going to die, I swear).

So, I made it back to my car, and just went home... 

And I am not going to lie, I cried. 

I cried and cried and cried. 

My dad assured me all I needed was warmer running stuff, and I know he's right.. We don't have the money for that.. especially since I don't plan on running outside in the winter AT ALL... 

I was looking up and asking WHOEVER IS UP THERE.. why the mid 30 temps and low wind couldn't carry over to THE WEEK OF THE RACE... 

I looked down and my ankle, and tried to make it promise to hold out until Thursday. And asked repeatedly WHY it started to hurt WORSE than every before. My ankle never did answer. Stupid ankle.

I took a hot bath, I got dressed, wrapped up the area... and went about the rest of my schedule for the day... 

My ankle ached the whole day... so when I went home, I put it in an ice bucket.. and let the healing/freezing process take over. It feels much better today. I took it very easy while running this morning... And I do not intend on pushing my time up.. on the contrary.. today, I just tried to do it in 36 minutes... I ran slower than I have in a long time... and I know the day of.. if everything works out right, I will do that time, if now a little better.

I know this.

Now, my dad, the sweet man he is, and by sweet I mean STUBBORN AS HECK.. Is buying me running gear tonight.. Just 2 top layers (shirt/jacket and pants).. I figure I can use the stuff I have as a base layer... It seemed to hold temperatures in the 30's... so I imagine just a little more on top will seal the deal.

At the moment, TURKEY TROT DAY looks to be a high of 19 degrees and windy/snowy... I know, it sucks... but, I got to do, what I got to do...

However the day before is 51 degrees and rainy. I am hoping the weather man has it a little wrong, and some of that heat transfers over onto Thursday. Please Cross your fingers, say a prayer.. . Do something... I don't need 51 degrees.. but I'd take High 30's... I know I can do that... I just don't want to freeze.

Any runners out there have any tips? Please? 

So.. even though Sunday sucked... and I was very discouraged.. I am back up.. and pushing through...

This will happen. I will run this.. THE WHOLE WAY... and I will finish... This is IMPORTANT to me... and is a SYMBOL of ALL of my ACCOMPLISHMENTS...

I let it get the best of me Sunday.. But not again... 

You fall, so you know how to PICK YOURSELF BACK UP.

(Side note: I only work 2 days this week, so I am trying to pre-write posts for Wednesday, Turkey Day, and Friday... so you probably won't hear race results until Monday morning... We'll see...)

Friday, November 22, 2013

If I see one more facebook post about..

How wrong it is that people are working on Thanksgiving, and that stores are opening on a "FAMILY HOLIDAY"... I'm going to puke.

Yes. It does suck. I have worked retail... and having to work on a Holiday is NOT fun. Working during the "Yule Tide" Shopping is most definitely not fun.. and Working a Black Friday when 1) you need to grab a few things and you can't because you are stuck at work! and 2) Hate shopping outside of the internet... SUCKS MOST OF ALL.

I agree. It's Sucktastic. 

Now here is where I jump off the bandwagon, and make a couple of new enemies.

Most of the people commenting how wrong this is... Are not retail employees. On Thanksgiving, MOST of these people will be watching the football game from their living room, hanging out with their families, and saying "Oh, but those POOOOOOOOR retail workers" and then after they eat their piece of pumpkin pie.. GO TO THE DAMN STORES AND SHOP

YOU PEOPLE: What is wrong with you?  How are you going to bitch and moan and complain about something that DOESN'T INCLUDE YOU and THEN YOU CONTRIBUTE TO THE REASON IT'S HAPPENING?!?!?! Does it help you to shop on the holiday? Will you say to the employee you buy that *insert hype item* I think it's awful you're working...

Now the people who do have to work the holiday and are complaining... And by complaining I mean, OVER THE TOP BITCHERY ABOUT HOW SUCKY THEIR LIFE IS AND HOW AWFUL THIS IS... 

YOU PEOPLE: 1) This is the job you are supporting yourself with, if the companies practices bother you so much... WALK.. I'm sure there is someone just WAITING AND BEGGING for a job to work. 2) You CHOSE this job... no one made you fill in the application to retail slavery... 3) What about the gas station attendants, grocery store employees, hotel staff, bus drivers, train conductors.... cabbies.... hospitals, police officers, EMTs ..... etc. etc. etc. What about those people? They still work even if the shopping mall is open or closed. JUST SAYING.

I haven't shopped during during the Black Friday Hype EVER. And you know why? Because, back when retail owned me, I worked 3 black Friday's in a row... And people are INSANE. And for the most part, other than Emry, none of the presents that I buy for people... COME from a retail store. I believe in handmade items, from handmade artisans. I believe in shopping local. And, that's why ETSY and our local artisan town (Sugar Loaf, NY) are amazing places. 
I have a few friends who are retail, and are kind of.. Ho Hum, yeah, well.. It's a job.. but it sucks nonetheless... This post is not directed at them. These are the people who know that FAMILY and BEING THANKFUL happens every day... that just because they can't celebrate on November 28, that they get to celebrate whenever they aren't working and can correlate plans. Turkey's are in the grocery store all year long... and these people know that a hug from their loved ones... and just getting to be with them.. IS WHAT IS IMPORTANT. 

 If you want to shop.. go shop... That's why they're open.. because people everyone likes a good deal. If you are that brave... GO FOR IT. But, don't be "THAT GUY" who says how wrong it is while giving the Checkout person your credit card. 

If you don't want to shop... still don't bitch about how wrong it is.. It doesn't help that the people are STILL in there WORKING their butts off. Don't waste your energy. 

If this offends you in any way shape of form... leave the comment below... I love a good debate.


Vent over


Thursday, November 21, 2013

I found this sad...

I have a friend, who has been single... for a VERY long time. 

She has been patient, hasn't wavered or compromised her standards... And, is always positive when other people are... excited about things going on in their life.

Well, finally, and at just the right moment, she meets this amazing man... 
She is really happy and excited about these things that are going on...

And I am super happy for her.

During our conversation this statement came up:

Aw! I'm excited for you! You have this amazing adventure! And, this guy seems amazing... And it's even COOLER that you're going to all these unique places! I am giddy to HEAR about it!  

Thank's so great to be able to tell somebody this stuff without them getting all...snippy.

I read this and was instantly saddened. 
She isn't one to say something, without their being truth behind it. Thus, someone, she trusted enough to tell about this... Was rude... and probably for jealous reasons, tried to take this happiness away from her. Or jade it in someway. 

I hate that. 

If you knew this person. . . you would know that she is ALWAYS happy for other people... and she really is "Always the bridesmaid and never the bride." 

For her to have this little piece of happiness... this fresh new relationship... and for her to actually let herself delve into it... IS A BIG DEAL.. and anyone who couldn't see that....

Well, isn't a good friend.

Now.. where was I going with this...

OH.. people taking your light.. because they can't make their own.

We all have experienced it... We are over the moon about SOMETHING... ANYTHING... and there's always that ONE person.. that says something, or laughs... Just because... they're jealous. 

They try to demean this amazing new "thing" (relationship, promotion, affirmation, what have you)... because either they:
1) Can't get it
2) Don't want to work as hard
3) Think they deserve it MORE than you do.

So.. instead of being happy for you.. which is the RIGHT thing to do.... they trash it.

It's very immature, It's very ... it's fucking shady. Let's go there.

You should never have people in your life that are trying constantly to bring you down to their darkness. Yes, we all have dark moments, however, we can pull ourselves up... out of it.... 

Now... I give people more chances than they deserve, at least that's what Klay tells me. I have a very forgiving heart.. and I do not know how to write someone off completely. . . . 

But, I think that in this circumstance.. that I would be fully capable of just disassociating with these type of people. 

Why just bring unwanted negativity to your world. 

I can't tell that to my friend though... She, like me, is very forgiving... and has an open heart. 

So... like she probably does for me.. We become the others Cheerleaders... when happiness comes our way... And the shoulder... when the sadness creeps in.

Make sure that you have friends that want you to be the BEST you.
Make sure that you aren't surrounding yourself with people who want to be THE BEST, and BETTER than you. 

That's my thoughts today.... 

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Here's the Skinny: Confessions from a Social Binge Eater - #5 (Don't be afraid to eat Crap)

The below meme is something that I have read, and keep reading. Even though I am at my goal, and have currently been maintaining it for 3 months, I still have a problem when it comes to... indulging. 

As previously discussed, we know that, for me, it's either... I eat very healthy.. or I binge eat. I have been doing much better recently. Not completely checking out... But, I still find that when I do indulge, that I have a problem stopping. 

As the meme says "the cookie won't ruin your month, don't let it ruin your day"... But, what happens when you know that one cookie leads to another one, then the mini sized candy bar, then something salty to counteract all that sweet... etc. etc. etc. 

Then technically it can ruin your day (and your stomach)... But, it really is true, it's never really ruined my month..... Hmmm.....

Anyway, today, was PIZZA TUESDAY. Most of the people in my department chipped in $5 and we each got 2 slices of pizza. We pooled our money together last week, and well, today was the day. 
However, when I woke up this morning, I didn't feel like pizza. Weird right? 2 slices of Pepperoni.. and I just don't want them. So, I packed my lunch anyway... Some yummy Clams and Macaroni, Celery w/ Ginger Dipping Sauce, and an Apple.

When people saw me heating up my lunch, I heard, "And you're eating pizza too?" Judgmental people... they're just wonderful... aren't they? *sarcasm* 

No, I'm not going to eat pizza too. I took my two slices, and I placed them in a ziplock bag, and wrote my name on it. I will either bring it home, or leave it for another lunch. 

Recently, usually on Wednesday (not sure why), I find that I get REALLY hungry. Even more hungry than I am on the weekends... even though, that hunger is more boredom or stress than anything else.. But I digress.... I figure since I am usually FAMISHED on Wednesdays, that I will save one of those slices for then. Maybe it will prevent me from hitting the mini candy bars, or vending machine downstairs. Who knows... It's worth a shot. 

Even after 3 months of maintaining the weight... Going up, and then Going right back down... I'm still afraid to eat Crap... Still afraid of the Binge Eating, that I know I do. . . . and I know that it's super hard (sometimes impossible) for me to control. 

When am I not going to be afraid of food? 
I mean, I love food... so to be also afraid of it... Well, it's kind of like an abusive relationship? You know? 

I am trying very hard to give myself some credit... I am trying very hard to remember that my exercise regimen is here to stay.. and that I can eat a little crud here and there.. because I work out so hard (almost) every day. 

But, maybe I am having a hard time convincing myself, because... maybe deep down I am not certain if that is the truth... Perhaps subconsciously I fear that I will stray from the healthy lifestyle... and go back to being less active... and... Overweight... 

Truth of the matter is.. It is MUCH easier being overweight, than being in shape:
  • When I was overweight, I didn't care what meals I made for the week, I made whatever, with whatever ingredients. I didn't plan. I didn't research healthy swaps. 
  • When I was overweight, I took big portions that made me feel warm and stuffed inside. I didn't measure it out, or try to guesstimate what a serving should be.
  • When I was overweight, I ordered anything I wanted off a menu.. and ate all of it... then dessert... without even thinking... Oh man, do I have to run this off tomorrow. 
  • When I was overweight, I was able to put Emry to bed, and then vegg on the couch without having to do a million things. a) pack my lunch b) prepare a healthy dinner, c) pack my vitamins, d) do some sort of exercise, e) shower to get un-gross after exercise, f) research healthy meals for the next weeks... etc etc. 
  • When I was overweight, we would get crazy take out and eat all of it while watching a movie. 
  • When I was overweight, I could sleep in for an extra hour, and then I could go to work. 

It was just different, and easier... It was easier when I wasn't being self accountable for my lifestyle. 
It was easier when I was turning a blind eye to what I was doing to myself.. and how I was allowing my body to get away from me... I keep finding pictures of me from last year, the year before... I found one from 2009... and well.. let's just say... I was huge. I had rolls everywhere... and I just didn't SEE it. I ignored it... 

However, sometimes taking the easy way is preferred... Sometimes you just need a break.. and you get off track... 

Can I return to being blind? And just forget all the work I've done? Can I just forget all the lessons I've learned and how my mindset has changed?

I don't think so.. but it's still a fear. 

So, because I need to hear this:


Don't let that piece(s) of pizza scare you... It's yummy... Just don't eat it everyday.
That ice cream is sweet and creamy... It goes great with Chocolate covered pretzels.
Indiana Popcorn Company makes delicious Kettle Corn Creations... Don't hide from the free samples in the store!

One day... Will not Kill you.
One day.. will not undo everything you have achieved.

Just be active and accountable. 

And it should all work out... 

Who's with me? 

Any advice for me? 

Monday, November 18, 2013

Pre Race Training is PURE awesomeness

This Sunday, I participated in the pre-race training session that was being provided by our local runners club.

And, I met a really nice woman named "Alaine"... and she runs at my pace.

And what pace is that?

Each mile took us 10m 42s and that gave us a course time of 33m 15s.  
In case you guys haven't been keeping track . .. THAT IS MY BEST TIME YET.

The president of the runners club, and 4 other people were "chit chatting" at 9 minute miles... I found that amazing... 

But, when they finished up, they came back for Alaine and I, (who were not the last people, there were some walkers as well...) and Mr. Running President gave me some pointers about my form and how to push up the hills... It was really great. So positive! 

The race is 10 days away and I am starting to really freak out! With Excitement, With Nerves, With Nausea!!!!

My foot/ankle isn't getting worse, but it certainly isn't getting much better. I am not running every day... I am limiting that training, even though mentally I am like "GO GO GO RUN RUN RUN". 
I know I can do it. I know I can do a good time, for a first time 5k.. And that is ALL that matters.
I will not hurt myself before this. I want to do this, and honestly I need to do this.

This is FOR me... and it's one of those milestones that I can say "I did this."

Now, back to the pure awesomness of pre-race training.

After we had finished, we were standing around and chatting... And, I was asked if I would like to join the local running club, and how there are people within the group who are at my pace, and others who run a great deal faster.. but, it will give me the inspiration and ability to run with people of all walks (no pun intended) of life. And perhaps hone my skill. 

For someone who used to HATE running... I find it pretty enjoyable now. 

There's another race... 4.3 miles (how many K is that? a 7k? am I close) and it's called the JINGLE JOG. How cute is that? It is exactly one week after I run the Turkey Trot. Depending on how my ankle is, I am considering this... It's a little over a mile more than I run already... And, if it isn't too much to sign up for (So late in the game).. I think I would really enjoy this! 

We'll see. But, I am now getting really into the SPIRIT of the RACE!


Yummy! - Food for the Week - Linguine and Clams in a White Sauce.

Clams and Macaroni (in a white sauce) has to be one of my favorite dishes. I could eat it ALL the time, and in BULK. 

I find it complete and utter comfort food. The recipe I grew up with, was not all that healthy... And involved a LOT of cheese... and butter... and oil.... So, I had to figure it out... 

Here is my:
"more Healthy then normal - Clams and Macaroni"

  • 2 TBSP Cooking Oil - I used Canola
  • 1/4 cup - Minced Garlic
  • 2 cups of Chicken Stock
  • 2-3 cups of White Wine - Honestly, I used a White Sangria that I needed to use.
  • 4 cans of minced clams in their own juice 
  • 3 TBSP  Pesto
  • 1/2 cup of Parmesan Cheese - 1/4 for sauce - 1/4 reserved
  • 1 box of linguine

Seasonings (all to taste):
  • Salt
  • Pepper
  • Oregano
  • Parsley
  • Basil
  • Red Pepper Flakes
  • Coriander

  1. Bring water to boil, and place pasta in the water. (Remember to salt your water for flavor!)
  2. While the pasta is cooking, heat the Canola oil in a medium Sauce pan.
  3. Add Minced Garlic, and cook until browned and smelly!
  4. Add Chicken Stock, and stir.
  5. Add White Wine, and bring to a simmer.
  6. Add Clams, Pesto, and Parmesan Cheese. Stir well.
  7. Begin to season to taste. 
  8. Allow sauce to cook for 5-10 minutes on a low simmer.
  9. Ladle a couple scoops of sauce into the bottom of a Bowl. Add the reserved Parmesan cheese.
  10. When Pasta is done, place is on top of the sauce and cheese in the bowl.
  11. Stir until pasta is coated.
  12. Now, slowly, add more sauce.. and stir to coat. You will do this a couple of times until all of the sauce is in the bowl with the pasta. Make sure you use a big enough bowl... We hate MESSES!
  13. Allow Clams and Macaroni to sit, and either serve when warm enough to eat, or place in the fridge for later! 

It is super tasty.. and comfort food...not to mention easy to make.

Yum Yum Yum!

What is on your plate this week?


Friday, November 15, 2013

Internet Etiquette: When is posting TOO much?

It's no news that I am an active internet user, and other than you guys... I run a private facebook page, that is really for my family and very close friends. I am such a loser very private, so I only have about 78 friends.

Some of my family lives in Tennessee, and we never get to see them SO... I post a lot of pictures. This allows for them to see our family.. and keep up with us. They do the same thing... It's kind of our way of not losing touch. 

I have also been very verbal on facebook recently... truth of the matter is, I am becoming addicted again, and may need to swear off Facebook for my New Years Resolution.. Or at least to only checking in once a day... instead of multiple times an hour... **sighs** But, I digress....

By now, I hope you have seen the post about Carl McBungles , and the fun I have been having with it. 

Well, obviously, I have offended one of my closer friends... or have been posting too many pictures of my son (I know, the horror!)... because I got a very interesting comment today... 

Please note the box in red...


It took me a couple of reads before I understood what was being said... But, down to brass tax... I live on the web, and my son is growing up on the web.

I'm sorry Miss Thing, who I need to comment is older than my father, Do you want to be the POT or the KETTLE? Are you commenting on my post.. from a social networking site... If I peruse your page right now.. will I not find 20 posts about your political views, healthcare, apples, pictures of the sunset... from the last 24 hours? 

I like the Kettle, I really want to be the Kettle, just saying. 

But, it does raise a very good question, to my other Internet/Blogiverse moms... When is posting about your kids... too much? When does it cross that line? 

For me... It depends what type of social networking we are speaking of.

Here.. in the blogiverse.. where I maintain a pseudo-name... I say, the sky is the limit. This is basically my online Journal, and it's wonderful that I get comments about it.. Because, it helps me not to feel so alone with certain things. 

Facebook/Myspace/Twitter/etc.: There is boundaries.. I do not post everyday about my son, where we are, where we go.... I never "check in" anywhere. I see that as a safety issue for me. But, when I take a cute picture of him... OH MAN... It's getting posted, so the fam in the south can see! And, since they don't get to interact with him, I give a brief description of "Naughty Behavior"... 

It's not like I'm one of those mom's that says "Johnny just sneezed while at Wal*Mart, in the 32nd Aisle." then 20 seconds later "Johnny made this face while in the 33rd aisle"...

Once a week, I dump my photos onto Facebook. I do take a lot. So, weekly lessens the burden. 
I only post extra shots, if something is happening that I think is really special. People have been asking to see "Carl"... So I did a quickie pic of it... 

And, I will admit, I got so many texts about it, there is now a folder on my page dedicated to wear we hide him. Overall my friends and family think this is awesome. 

But, perhaps... 
I could hold back a little...

Perhaps the facebook addiction is seeping a little too far.

I just don't understand why if these things bother her so.. why she had to view it? 

*eye roll*


Does anyone think I am raising my son on the internet? 

Welcome - Carl McBungles our EBP

A week or so ago, I mentioned that I was giving in, so to speak, and getting Emry an "Elf on the Shelf". However I wanted him to be a little more menacing than the cutie patootie one that you get in the stores.

Also: I didn't want to spend $30 on this tiny bendable elf... This mama is a frugal shopper. After perusing Etsy... I found one, he was perfect... and kind of freaky... However, my bubble was shot from the air.. when they Artist, basically marked it up by 25% just to BEND HIS LEGS INTO A SITTING POSITION... Uhm.... No lady.. Sorry... I don't love him that much.

So, what was a Mom to do? Well... I walked around the Christmas Tree shop and a lightbulb went off... I found him.. He is creepy, without inducing seizures or nightmares... bendable... and $6.. Yes you heard me right.. SIX FREAKING DOLLARS. Sold!

We named him Carl McBungles, and he is Emry's EBP - Elf Behavioral Partner. A NNB (Notice of Naughty Behavior) was dropped of magically at our house, and we started... 

Upon reading the Notice of Naughty Behavior.. Emry was shaking. Literally, I had to help him steady the paper... so I could help him read it. But, that night... he took an amazing bath, without problems... And the next morning didn't give Klay any grief, followed by 2 nights of drama free after school time. I say this thing is working. THANK GOODNESS.

Yes, I know it's early.. but, the kicker is, and most of the other moms have jumped on this with me. If the elf comes early... You obviously have a LOT of 'splaining to do. 

We are on Day 3 of moving this elf around the house... I haven't taken a picture of his Third Position.. because I try to do it when Emry isn't looking.. I don't want him getting any ideas that I (or Klay) have anything to do with this. 

Day 1 - on the big reveal, we hid him above the refrigerator, just poking out of the cupboards.

Day 2 - he is peeking out from over the top of the Entertainment Center.

We will have 1 month and 8 days to go.. I plan on Carl disappearing for Xmas Eve. . . And leaving Emry a present, along with his copy of a triplicate formed comment card to Santa. Insuring that Nice Status has been reached... I plan on doing one of those "Night Before Xmas Boxes"... With the footie PJ's, hot cocoa mix, popcorn, and a movie or something... I thought that be super cute.

But, what do you guys think? Is it a good elf?

Thursday, November 14, 2013

I will not get hurt in the next 14 days

I know I probably just jinxed myself, but the goal is NOT to get hurt (at least, injured anywhere that would hinder my running) in the next 14 days....

The RACE is in 14 days.

I know, it's pretty crazy right?

This morning, I woke up and my ankle was really sore. I am thinking I slept with my legs crossed all funny, and that it's just tight... 

But, I attempted to run... and the 23 seconds of running.... Well.. My body said NO. Let's be really honest about this: My ankle screamed "STOP PLEASE STOP PLEASE STOP DON'T DO THIS TO ME!" So, I stopped....

I did a lot of weight training today... I basically reversed my workout... more weights than cardio...

With that said, after an hour of weight training.. I was pretty stretched and warmed up... I thought... Let me try again...


Okay, I understand, Mr. Right Ankle.... No running.

So we walked... By we...I mean ME and MY RIGHT ANKLE....

When I got back up to my office, I heated up my heating pack... which is more in the office to keep me warm... then it is for therapeutic purposes... By I guess warmth can be considered therapeutic... hmmm... I love rationalizing! 

I turned one of my waste paper baskets upside down, and rested my ankle, with the heat on it... for about 2 hours... 

It's still a little sore when I go between plantar and dorsi flexion... (read: move my ankle)
So, I figure I have to do some extra stretching of that area tonight... 

Here are some great stretches to work out that area:

Now, even though this is entitled: "I will not get hurt in the next 14 days"... and I'm writing about the "hurt" in my ankle... I think that by tomorrow I should be okay... If not... I'll take it slow again.

I have been training for 2 months now... And my times are amazing for a non-runner... Listening to my body is important.

People tell you to work through the pain...

As a LMT, that's not exactly true.

If the pain is just muscle soreness.. Sure, push on through...

If the pain is sharp... and does not disappear as you workout... if there is throbbing... Stop. Rest the Area. Work another Area. 

If it's super bad... See a doctor. You never want to do damage to your body.

The coolest part of this weekend, will be the pre-race training that is being provided by the local runner's club. I will actually be doing the course.. with a bunch of people... So, it will get me prepared for what is in store. ALSO, I might get some of those nervous jitters out of the way... you know, running with people... "racing" as it were.

So, send me some good energy... And let's hope this is just a one day thing.

Between the Stomach Bug I had... and Now this... It's as if there are barriers being placed in my way...

Sorry, I don't DO barriers... 

Be well people.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Food For the Week - Jerk Chicken and Veggie Casserole

Well, I am back, I am at 95% health, and since I can look at food, and manage to eat it, today is the day you get to read about the awesome and healthy Casserole I made for my family this week.


  • 1-2 pounds of boneless chicken breasts (cut into bite sized chunks)
  • 1 medium red onion (chopped)
  • 1 green bell pepper (chopped)
  • 1 red bell pepper (chopped)
  • 2 medium carrots (chopped)
  • 2 celery stalks (chopped)
  • 1 poblano pepper (chopped)
  • 8 ounces of butternut squash (I buy it pre-chopped and seasoned at Price Chopper, I just need a little)
  •  2 TBSP of Cooking Oil 
  • 2 TSP of Flour
  • 1.5 cups of banana puree (you can take 3 ripe bananas and do it yourself, or you can get Gerber's... your choice... guess what I chose)
  • A lot of Fresh Minced Garlic (I like a lot, you choose your level of comfort)
  • 1 small log of herb goat cheese

I will never give away my exact mix for my jerk seasoning. But, you'd be wise to use:
  • Jamaican All Spice
  • Cumin
  • Ground Chili Pepper
  • Garlic
  • Onion
  • Liquid Smoke...
  • Smoked Paprika...
And.. well.. other stuff.. but, I am seriously going to the grave with it.

Best bet: Go to Wal*Mart, and look for a non descript, no name bottle of seasoning.. 

  1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees.
  2. Grease a 9 x 13 glass baking dish.
  3. Take the first 8 ingredients and mix them together into the baking dish.
  4. Season with your Jerk Seasoning lightly... enough to evenly coat the ingredients
  5. Now time to make a sauce:
    1.  Take the oil and heat it slightly in a medium size sauced pan.
    2. Add the flour and whisk together until you get a creamy looking thickened oil.
    3. Add Minced Garlic, and let it brown slightly.
    4. Add the banana puree and whisk together until smooth.
    5. Once warmed, add the log of goat cheese, and begin to whisk until the mixture is warm and smooth.
    6. (OPTIONAL STEP): If this is too thick for you, add 1/4 cup of water, and whisk until smooth.
    7. Season with the Jerk Seasoning, and add whatever your taste buds say will make you happy. I added a little more Liquid Smoke, and some Bacon/Molasses Seasoning I picked up from the store a week or so ago.
  6. Pour sauce evenly over dry ingredients
  7. Cook in oven for about 45-60 minutes uncovered. Until the top of the casserole is slightly browned and the chicken is cooked all the way through.
  8. ENJOY
This is what it will look like when you are all done

Tuesday, November 12, 2013


I have the stomach flu.
I haven't worked out since Sunday Morning, and that was the Crunches And Leg Raises.. I haven't RAN since Friday...





But, yet, here I am.. at work... Trying to stomach plain oatmeal and a banana... And let me tell you.. that isn't easy...


Not sure if I'll post a lot today.. since, I am currently running to and from the bathroom every... oh 10 minutes....

YAY for not having any more sick days...

I have placed a quarantined since on my office door.... Hopefully people will take the hint.

Friday, November 8, 2013

And baby makes 4...

No, I'm not pregnant... But, I guess I did kind of trick you up there. With that title... However!

I am babysitting my Goddaughter tonight, and the thought of having a baby in the house... is... overwhelming.

WHY? Well, I am done with just one... that's why. I never want another child, and thank the gods, neither does Klay. I know that I wouldn't be able to effectively parent two children. I know what my limitations are. And yeah, some of you out there will say that it's easy, and that it isn't as hard as I think it is...

But, also, we are not financially set up to have another kid.. PLUS, I really don't want to actually HAVE one. Pregnancy is great for some people, I read a fashion blog, and this woman has had the most WONDERFUL pregnancy... Mine, was, NOT wonderful... So there's that.

But, there is something about a baby that makes me melt, and even funnier, Klay too. I love babies, I love kids... I get all gooey around them... For instance, at karate, there is this little sister, Genevieve, who comes with her mother and watches her big brother. She is.. how do I explain the cuteness of this child? DISNEY created her.. I swear... She is... adorable.. and I rather talk to her, than some adults... 

But, she isn't mine, and I can have small doses of her.. so I am really good with that.
Same thing with my goddaughter, Brooke, I'll watch her here and there for the rest of my life, I know this, but, I will always be able to GIVE HER BACK. 

I think Emry is a little hesitant about having a baby in the house too.. He loves baby Brooke, however, he knows that he is expected to be a big boy, and helpful when she is around.. because she is SO fragile at this point. Brooke is a little over 2 months old... And I love her baby cheeks... *Sighs**

But then, the estrogen kicks in, and being a woman TAKES OVER... and I think... Would it be bad? *The voice in my head screams YES very loud* But, still, I ponder... I often wonder if my pregnancy was so... strained... because of the circumstances I was in. My ex didn't want me to have Emry... And by time I knew I was pregnant, not having him wasn't an option. (OBVIOUS AND NECESSARY DISCLAIMER: I am religious, and I do believe in abortion in appropriate instances... but I believe in birth control even more. Emry was... a miracle baby.. nothing we did could have prevented him.. I am certain of this.. My son saved my life.) Then, when I was actually in labor, my ex watched cartoons... on the TV in the hospital room... I was unsupported.. I was sad.... It wouldn't be that way now... I don't think it would be...

Klay and I have had the discussion about what would happen if we ever DID get pregnant. And, we both agree that we would do the right thing, and be the best parents as we could to both children. I needed to have this conversation with him, because, I never want to be afraid or sad about being pregnant.. ever again. Even though I don't want another baby... if I was pregnant.. I would be happy. You know? I would make it work... We would make it work...

But, babysitting Brooke.. all these thoughts have been spiraling through my head... 
Yes, having another baby would be hard.
Yes, it is not in our plan...

Babies are blessings... 

And family is work... but worthy work... 

So, I am excited to squish my goddaughter, and I am prepared for the future, if it should ever occur... 

My nights plan? Since she's 2 months old and does NOTHING... Well:

Brooke is going to watch me cook dinner for next week, and watch me pack for the wedding we are going to on Sunday, and watch me eat dinner, and watch me do Day 5 of that ab challenge... Maybe watch some TV.. and hopefully, I can give her a sponge bath and get her to sleep. That's the plan. Really... 

Tell me, if you have kids, how do you feel about having another?

If you come from a relationship like mine (that one of the adults isn't the bio parent)... how do you feel about another kid?

If you have no kids... Do you think I'm nuts? Have I scared you even more about parenting?


Thursday, November 7, 2013


I have been sitting here staring at the blank blog post template for about 20 minutes, and I really have absolutely NOTHING to say... And, we all know me, that's a pretty big deal.

I can tell you how I am dong amazing runs, and workouts today...
I can tell you how, even though I was sweating like a sinner in church, I enjoyed every moment. 

But, I just feel: SLEEPY.

I don't feel like typing, or working... I really could just crawl up into my work chair, and cover myself with my big sweater... and nap.

I can't figure out what I am so tired.

The only thing different today, from any other day.. was my choice of breakfast.

My friend over at Baking in my Bathing Suit, wrote a post yesterday about OATMEAL.. and it made me really want it...

So I made myself some, and spiced it up with some Cinnammon, 1/2 tsp of caramel sauce and 1/2 tsp of dark chocolate syrup.. You know, for sweetness. 

And boy was it warm, comforting, and tasty. . . .

That shouldn't make me tired.

Aw well... anyway...

I really got nothing to share...

Anyone else?

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

November 6 - Fall Fancy Follower Fest & New Exciting Journey News!

I found this on Lipgloss and Crayons, and I honestly think it's a great idea.
This blog, as well as all the other blogs I find while perusing, are all about style, decor, fashion, beauty tricks, and some healthy living blogs too!

I am always trying to become more.. "put together" I find that reading most of these blogs have helped me... a little.

Old habits die hard, but, I am starting to see myself in things that are more age appropriate, and work appropriate. Little changes in my wardrobe here and there... But, to others, it's as if I am a "NEW WOMAN"...

Between my almost put together wardrobe, and my new physique... it's like I'm.. COMPLETELY NEW to people.

I have the button on my page, for this event too.. so if you lose this post, you can always find it in the upper left hand corner of my page!

Now.... for the exciting news... 

The 5k is 22 days away, and I am doing really well, and feeling very confident. 
But, that's not the news!

I have a mutual acquaintance, who is a personal trainer... like CRAZY IN SHAPE PERSONAL TRAINER. And she, has taken enough interest in me to make a structured plan JUST FOR ME.


Since I have the basics down, and am just looking to tone up, and lose this doughy part of my stomach, she is making a specialized training program to do so. 

Isn't that PHENOMENAL?

Even better... I will see better results in half the daily workout time I usually do. And will only be doing this 4 days a week. 

More results? More Work? LESS TIME? 

Sounds Win-Win to me! What do you think.

I probably will start this on Friday, and will take a STARTING picture... and then every 2 weeks (which is the plans she is making for me.. yup, 2 weeks of training, then a different set of workouts... All this work, just for little ol' me? I like this chick.. I'm going to buy her a present! seriously, I am considering.. what do you buy a personal trainer? hmm I am off topic) take another picture to show the progression....

I am super excited to start this new part of my Healthy Journey. Who would have thought this possible? Not me!

February 2013 at about 180 pounds... to August at 130 pounds... to now maintaining the 130 pounds, and now training for a 5k and getting specialized help from a personal trainer!

This is amazing. I feel truly blessed!

Also! I have found the most amazing, ab workout, it takes almost no time at all.. to start... and builds gradually over a 24 day period (on every 4th day, you even get a break!) Do you want to see it? 

Photo: Let's get it ladies!!!!! :-) #fit #abs #allme #getright #sixpack

Gia, my coworker, who has lost more than 20 pounds... is doing this with me. We are coaching each other, because we know, that by day 8.... we're going to NEED it.

Today will be DAY 3. Who wants to JOIN?!?!?!